I just needed to say that. It is Sunday night and I am sitting here with my glass of red wine and thinking about all of the TIME and ENERGY I wasted not enjoying my life, my body, my weight, obsessing about becoming something, I never knew what, with the constant disappointment that no matter how hard I tried I just could not change. For years, I was not able to transform myself in to the dream girl, with the dream body, with the dream life. I spent so much time, energy money and anguish that at the end of the day the only solution was escape, anger, and fake joy. I spent so much time looking at my body but never being in it, I spent time beating it up but never learning how to communicate with it, I spent time abusing it and feeling abused but never being fascinated by it or loving it. So, I did all that, wasted all of that time and spent 30 years looking for answers…. I found them, I changed the shape of my body, I learned how to live with wine and cake and pizza, I learned that hottness did not equal abuse and torture but really, understanding and science. I know that every magazine that you look at tells you to run one more mile, or do one more cleanse, or lift one more weight, but there is no life in that and more importantly there is no real change in that. It is just another endless roller coaster of emotions, temporary success followed by the dips of failure and frustration. I know, compared to all of the fitness fanatics, I sound too good to be true, but not only am I right but the science backs me up and 1,000s of success stories are testament to the fact that you can have your cake and look hott too! I am not too good to be true and I am just the truth.
Life is not about waiting until the abuse of your workout is over or the torture of your latest diet ends to start. It is right now. It is understanding how to be in control of the shape and size of your body. It is about understanding how and when your wine fits in, not because you are cheating but because you are fully living. It is not about skipping time with your friends to kill yourself with a workout that leaves you exhausted, beaten up and probably injured, it is about learning about you, loving your body, creating the shape that you love and enjoying every step of it. It is about clear skin and a clear mind because you have learned to hydrate for your body, it is about a great nights sleep and easy mornings because your skinny jeans always fit, it is about having the dressing on your salad not on the side and feeling great afterwards. Cardio is an invention, it is not health, diets and cleanses are also known in some countries as famine, workouts that leave you injured and abused are just that abuse. Am I a little angry right now, you bet I am. I just want to grab each girl I see running with a knee brace, or putting splenda in her coffee, or longingly staring at the skinny girl walking by and scream. THIS IS YOUR LIFE RIGHT NOW! I want you to live it. Every moment of it, fully, happily, hottly! The stuff they are feeding you is a lie, it is about winning and losing not about living.